on my baby first birthday I drank goo goo water
my parents ate Mongolian beef
I had chicken with broccoli
my little brother had nine more years 
to be born 
in those nine years he swam in egg drop soup & went 
goo goo to the whales who were goo goo to the krill
who were goo goo to the sea urchins who were goo goo
to the goo that live underwater like me
like me they don’t swim
like me they don’t swallow semen
if semen gets in their mouth 
they just goo goo it onto another sick fuck
which is not as sad as not being who you say you are
which is not as sad as not being who you want to be
which is not as sad as not being who you could be
which is not as sad as not being who you should have been
I should have been born with big fat cunt lips for lips
I should have been born with a skinny regular cunt for a cunt
had I been then my ‘lil cunt could have given farewell speeches 
at the end of great moments like this moment 
when my mother said she was happy she gave birth to me 
& I said I was too & she knelt down by my cunt lips
& kissed the very mouth that said what had to be said