I no longer want to be in charge 
of creating anything perishable or lasting.
I’ve been thinking lately 
the hardest thing in life is remembering 
to take out the trash.
How I do not bury or compost 
although I will flush just about anything.
How I don’t really want to live in New England 
but I realize that one day my parents will die 
and I will have the rest of my life 
to live without them 
in California where I’ll be even lonelier.
I also understand you are biologically wired 
to want to take me from behind but know
you will no longer be able to deny my humanness 
and I know this isn’t a new idea 
but I’ve yet to see anyone offer a solution.