And then there is the portal
at the bottom of the page,
which may or may not lead
to the portal at the top of
any other page. And then
there is the portal at the
bottom of the page, which
may or may not lead to the
portal at the top of another
page.
In short, the portal is one
life to another, our own and
others', our own others and
others' others, so that we
read ourselves and others,
writing ourselves. When
Lisa Robertson became The
Office of Soft Architecture
she added to our structure,
giving us another surface. It
was like that for Erin
Moure, who gave herself
another name through
translation, another portal,
and gave us other selves. It
was like that for Pessoa and
Rimbaud but it was not the
same. It was like that when
we brought things from
other languages, in which
we brought our selves. It
was like that for Scardanelli.
We are singing together and
so are they singing together,
for we and they are
together, and we do not
know where they leave off.
For we do not know
ourselves, we say, and they
are right.
There is the feeling of
being the theater. Nonetheless
you are disoriented upon
walking outside into
whatever light is left, after
the projector was the basis
for your reality, shared as it
was with others in the
theater. Only, for once we
knew from where the light
of being emanated! No, but
it was not only once, for we
have been to this theater
before, or some other, and
the sun hangs over our days
and casts itself off the
mirror of the night. And we
take ourselves outside,
or appear to emerge from the
theater of ourselves, when
we may not in fact step out
of who we are, except that
we are no longer who we
were, even a moment ago.
And the very minute we
notice something has
changed, we lose ourselves
except in recollection. And
who are we to complain?
So we've seen this one
before, but there are parts
we don't recall. Was that
detail always there, and who
might we verify, or with
whom, that is, might we
compare scenes? It's
as though we really were there
all along! And not just
because we told you so. The
comedian has heard all her
jokes before, though she is
not the first to laugh.
And what of our parade of
portals leading each to each,
a mirror faced with another
mirror with a little door in
one corner. We are ever
opening that door, or
getting ready to. For we are
ever on the way to our next
scene. And are directionless,
except for the angle of the
apparatus, which hits our
back, casting us forward, or
that way, anyway. Yes of
course we told you so. You
do you, we say.